what's up

well it's been a while since i've written. i'm been going back and forth between things in my life, like money, relationships, parents, where i live!! i guess everyone goes through the same things, but i just feels hard when it happens to you. my biggest complaint right now might be not having a car. it's been 2 months now. i'm really starting to feel the effects of it. the fucking idiot totally fucked my shit up!! if he had stop or waited for the light to change, i'd still have a car. i greatest thing that happen this year so far was going to california!! i had the most amazing time just be with my family. i'd really would consider moving to cali if it wasn't for my situations here. i'd like to start over and being with cousins would be amazing. i really love them. i went to disneyland and loved it! hopefully all my bullshit problems are over i can go back to go concentrating on my "spirituality". as for now i could really care less. i do care actually, but i just don't the energy for so much drama. i just wanna party tonight, and that's what i intend to do........!!!!!